On Thursday, May 3, 2012, I received the worst phone call of my life informing me that I had tragically lost my father. Approximately 24 hours later, I was in my car with my children, driving half way across the country to be with my family and tend to our loss. Since that call, my life has been turned upside down and I have been experiencing a wide array of emotions.
As I write this post, I have returned home in the attempt to go back to my old routine. I don't think the routine will ever be the same to be quite honest. I will just try my best because afterall, an instruction manual has never been written on how to deal with a situation like this. You just have to do your best to cope and deal with the pain. One thing that helps me is writing; therefore, I have decided to attempt to dive back into my writing. Things will continue to be light again this week and maybe next, but I will slowly be coming back. Writing is healing to me. It takes me away, but also allows me to process. Reading helps me to escape, but focusing has been difficult for long periods of time.
I guess I just ask you to bear with me. Be patient with me. It's a rough time right now.
Oh, Tif ... I am so, so sorry for your loss. I'm sure it will be a while before you are able to feel any sense of normality -- please, take all the time you need. And know that I am always here for you as a friend. ::hugs and love::ReplyDelete
Kristen M. ... Thank you so, so much!Delete
Hello Tif, you and your family are in my prayers. Your faithful readers will remain and send positive thoughts towards youReplyDelete
wordsandpeace.com ... Thank you so much for your kind words.Delete
So sorry. I can't even imagine. Hang in thereReplyDelete
Suey ... Thank you. Some days I'm hanging better than others, but I know with time it will get easier.Delete
There are never the right words for times like these but my heart, thoughts, prayers and deepest sypathies go out to you and your family. My best friend lost her father two weeks ago and I know that it is a moment when your life will never be the same. As I told her, I don't think it ever gets easy, but hopefully with healing it will get less hard. Comfort and peace to you, dear.ReplyDelete
lisa :) ... Thank you so very much for your wonderfully kind words. They mean so very much to me.Delete
I'm so sorry, Tif. I know how hard it is to lose your dad. I know you won't believe it right now, but time helps. Try to remember all the good times you shared.ReplyDelete
Carol M ... Thank you. I've been spending lots of time looking at pictures, remembering those good times. It is hard, but it is good.Delete
I'm so sorry for your loss!! :(ReplyDelete
Oh hon, words can't express my sorrow for your loss. My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family.ReplyDelete
Thank you so much.Delete
I am so sorry! I am sending out cyber hugs to you.ReplyDelete
I do not know what you are going through, but I can tell you that it's been rough over here in Alabama for the last several weeks. My brother-in-law died, and my daughter had a tragedy -not death,but a tragedy.
My heart goes out to you.
Shannon ... I am so sorry for all that you have had to experience as well. Lots of cyber hugs need to be going around to help with all the healing! I'm sending some your way as well.Delete
So sorry for your loss. Take your time to grieve and do what you need to take care of yourself and your family.ReplyDelete
We will be here when you get back.
Marg ... Thank you. I may be back sooner rather than later. Writing is good for me, though reading is proving to be a bit more difficult for the time being.Delete
Tif - I'm so very sorry for your loss. Keeping you and your family in our thoughts and prayers. *hugs*ReplyDelete
Alexia561 ... Thank you. I truly appreciate it.Delete
Tif, I said it before and I say it again - I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you. The fact that you remain as involved as you have been in Armchair BEA while dealing with everything is insane and impressive. Please let me know if there is anything I can do to help you in your time of grief.ReplyDelete
Michelle ... Thank you so much! It has been good for me to stay busy, and Armchair BEA is a perfect little distraction when I don't want to think about these past few weeks.Delete
I just now saw this and I wanted to write and give you my condolences on losing your dad. I lost my dad in an accident in 2009 and it was a total shock that just rocked my world. It was so hard to figure out a way back to life and to blogging. Losing a parent is so so difficult as it rearranges your life in a way you never imagined possible. I'm so sorry for your loss and send you my deepest sympathies. Hugs to you in this difficult time.ReplyDelete
Jenners ... Thank you so much! I don't wish to discuss the details, but I will tell you that my father's death was also very unexpected and it has completely rocked our world as well. I am an only child and live thousands of miles from my mom. I wish every day that I was closer to help her and simply to just be with her. Your hugs and sympathy mean a lot. Thank you!Delete